I'm Sorry Baby :'( I Really Mean It ♥
This is espicially for you my dear ♥.
I know we are fighting right now just of a stupid thing we fight badly till like this . I know its my fault that, in the first place i told you about fiza o .Maybe , i didn't realise that i type fiza O when i wanna say to you that acutally its Nona Kirana which is my far away cousin . I didn't lie to you baby i didn't . But , i know you think that i lied to you it's okey baby i understand you have the rights to get angry and to loose your trust towards me . I know last time i use to lie to you i admit it but , not anymore b . I had enough of lying when all you do is being truth towards me . I lied coz, i don't wanna hurt you . I know it hurts plus i know saying sorry can't even cure anything . Eventhough , we are fighting right now i never ever leave your side never baby . I won't leave you , i really love you so much till the last of my breathe :') You put up your best with my shit attitude even you know that i sometime's irritating , childish and annoying u put your very best to stay calm , relax when i do those things to you . Even , how many time's you hurt me you scold me you show me your attitude i won't give up. I will stay by your side even tighter i will try to fight my very best on this relationship and you . :') You will never know how much i love you how much i sacrifice and how many tears and struggle to be with you to make you stay . Only certain of my gerls & even allah knows it . I may not be your perfect girlfriend that could never hurt , dissapoint you but i promise you when i love you , i only love you there's no three or four there's only one you out of million other guys out there. Even if you say you're just an outsider that have no rights to ask me to do anything you're absolutely wrong b.
I've told you for so many time's but , i guess you can't see it . You're not an outsider for me i never even though about you being an outsider for me . You're in my heart you're in my life you're apart of me you're the special boyfriend for me .
I never could find someone like you never could baby . I know your heart break into pieces so does your trust towards me but , i will fight and prove you i promise . I'll never give up that easily i will let this r.ship of ours stay stronger even it shakes terribly . I maybe a Liar towards u before but , now i'm not i repent baby i realise my mistakes for doing all those shits towards u . But , never question my love towards u if my love is a lie or my love has fade for you . I will never lie to myself loving u . Coz, my heart is where you stay my heart tattoo your name my heart is when we first met i fall for you deep and stronger . Even , if you break my heart into pieces dissapoint and hurt me over and over again i don't mind .
No matter how weak i am and many reasons i thought of giving up but , i will never do that coz, why ? I love you so much.
I never met a guy like you that could put thru my shit attitude and accept all my flaws and imperfections . We have many memories and similarities that i could never forget . When i think about all the fun's i have with you last time we both were so happy i cried . Even, the time's when we fought . I may have the looks like what you said easy to get guys but , i don't use my looks to attract guys coz, for me personality come's first like how i accept you just the way you are even you told me you're not perfect like other guys who is hot , tall , skinny . But , i don't need hot , tall & skinny guys coz, in this world nobody is perfect you & me we both are not perfect our imperfections that make us be together and when we are together we are the perfect two . :') I may not be your best girl , i yelled at you , i overthink , i get jealous , i have pms , i scolded you , i show attitude towards you , i act childish , annoyed you , irritate you but i have the biggest heart to love you wholeheartly . And , even if you find any other girls out there you can't find how much i love you the way i do always ♥.
I may bottle everything inside my heart just not to make you feel hurt coz, i don't want to end up fighting eventhough i know telling it straight foward you can work things out together but , i don't want you think so hard till you didn't sleep late at night let me be the one sacrificing my sleep for you . Like , right now . And , i know you're not sleeping too now .
Each r.ship there's always the ups and downs that some of us can control and some of us can't . It depends on the both of the partners . I just hate fighting with you , fighting with you yes can make us closer together and make our love strong but for me it doesn't make me feel good about it . Fighting = to not talking to you, you shouted and i shouted , lost the trust and much more . That's the reason why i carefully choose my words to say to you so that we won't end up fighting .
But , as for now i didn't lie to you i really didn't i don't even know if i really can gain your trust back ? Maybe , it takes forever for me :'( . Haish* Allah , please give me strength on this please . :'( No matter how many time's we fight i won't leave your side i will always be there for you stick thru you forever and will always love you till my very last breathe b . I love you so much and i really mean it when i say i'm sorry ♥ :'(