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Sorry i didn't update for the past few months or days . Been busy studying and plans here and there till i didn't have much time to sign in into my blogger . Yeap! Lately , life seems haywire fought with mum and we are ok now. And , lately i've hurt the one i love too . This is so not me i thought by doing good deeds it will turn up to be good but its not . Ok , i rather get things over it . I don't want to think about it what had happened i will let it pass.
Mum , i know i can't be the daughter you wish i could . But , no one is perfect in this world mum not even your daughter here not even you .Everyone make mistakes so do i . Sometime's i just don't get you mum seriously speaking i don't understand you totally .Eventhought , you're my mum but your own daughter just don't understand your attitude. I need a little bit freedom/space mum i just need that i need to get out from the house so that i'll know the world out there and the people out there what they do or does nor even how they live their life.
It's something different i need to learn from mum how i wish you could understand me totally and give me space in my life . It's not that i hate you i don't i do love you mum . But , when things get into my nerve sometime's i just have those feelings of hating you . Now is ramadhan i tried to endure every word you say but , sometime's in my heart its burning and hurt whenever you say those harsh words to me. I am just a teenage girl mum i need to learn many new things out there not seating at home everyday . Tell me mum do every daughter stay home everyday ?
No mum . They have their days when they can spent time with their friends or boyfriend mum . I know you care about my safety and much more . But , please don't over protective and same goes to dad . Please ? I know what is wrong and what is not . I know what i should do and what i should not do mum i'm big enough mum . For once please? Understand me and give me freedom and accept him SyedIsa. You don't know how much i love him . You just don't mum and dad . Sometime's people say you and dad do this for my own good so i won't go into the bad company . But , by doing this do you think what you did is right to make me better ? I guess , not at all mum .It's something different i need to learn from mum how i wish you could understand me totally and give me space in my life . It's not that i hate you i don't i do love you mum . But , when things get into my nerve sometime's i just have those feelings of hating you . Now is ramadhan i tried to endure every word you say but , sometime's in my heart its burning and hurt whenever you say those harsh words to me. I am just a teenage girl mum i need to learn many new things out there not seating at home everyday . Tell me mum do every daughter stay home everyday ?
Its like the more you make me hurt and what you do make me pushing you away far from me . And , that's the reason why i only share my problems with my friends , boyfriend and aunty . Only some of them can understand me deeply but not you all . I know , i need to have the courage to speak up one day . But , i don't think you will understand me . Never will mum and dad . Sighs* Ok , see this is my problem . Haish* Life is hard for me everyday and life is so complicated sometime's . Sighs* Better change topic. Hah! Currently, watching Do knot Disturb at Tv2 and chatting with Boyfriend♥. ^^ Today , i have no plans i guess? Yeap! Will stay at home and watch my favourite hindustan . I guess , its been years i didn't get to watch my favourite hindustan.Chek!Just kidding . :PIt's been a month actually.Yeah!~ Hah ! Ok , what should i blabber ? Erm , i guess im pretty sick and tired of my background and the colour in my blog . Need a change somehow but , i'm to lazy to do it now . Yeah!~Will edit everything again if i'm not lazy and when i'm free . Ok , i better get going now . Adios ! Takecare♥. (= I LOVE YOU SYED ISA! ♥