Happy 21st Birthday Afan ♥ (':
To:Afan ♥(My Ex Boyfriend,My bestie,My one and only,My laughingmachine,My sunshine,My Cuteypie) ;
I'm doing thing post just for you a special one . Eventhough you don't even know my blog but i'm wishing it over here . I wanna wish you a Happy 21st Birthday Amer Irfan . You are already 21 years old this year that was fast . (': I really wish we could still contact each other like we use to last time but , everything change i can't do anything and pull it back. I hope you're doing just fine Cuteypie ♥. (': I'm worried about you, i still care, i still love you, i still wonder everynight and everyday how are you doing at there .Haish *crying* Eventhough , we are far apart right now you're always in my heart and mind . I kept on thinking about you 24/7 i keep on praying to Allah to keep you safe and happy may all your wishes you wish for will be granted . I hope you will enjoy your day today Cuteypie ♥ . I know you don't bother replying my texts coz , you once said to me that don't text you anymore . But , i'm just wishing you and asking for your forgiveness . I know , i should move on . But , it's not that easy it will take me years to move on . You see it yourself don't you ever since 2009 follow by 2010 and up till now 2011 . It's like 3 years i'm not moving on . B'coz i know other boys/guys couldn't replace you in my heart . I really promise you and i didn't even break the promise Fan ♥.
I know you had already move on and maybe , you have someone new in your heart and by yourside. But , for me i didn't mind at all . I know , i might be hurt to see you with her . But , its okey as long as you're happy i'm happy for you too Fan (': . Hmmmmm ... (': Haish . Remember 2009 back 2 years then ? When we both were together ? We text everyday you call me up in the night ? I miss those texts and calls from you . And ,you ask me to sing Twinkle Twinkle Little star ? (' : All that is our memories those memories that i treasure and cherish that i will never forget in my life . (': I miss you Fan i really miss you . Last year i remember that i wish you for your b'day and you replied and when my b'day come's you wish me too . *crying* Haish .
I miss those texts and your jokes and your voice everything about you i miss )'; I really couldn't live without you )'; I know its my fault till we are separated . I really couldn't stop blaming myself for what i've done to you. I know i should text you and not ignoring your messages . I'm sorry fan i'm sorry )'; I know how it feels like leaving you just like that . )';I still remember during my holidays u accompany me at home by texting and we watch cartoon's together and we laugh together when you make a joke about the cartoons and we play the controller game . Those late night accompanying me tune in MisterJam 12 and you won't stop scarying me and i scares you too . I miss those fun time's and sweet time's with you )'; sometime's when i'm alone or see anyone together it will remind me of you . Everything that they did together they remind me of us . Whenever my gerls say something that is similar to what you say it reminds me of you . I couldn't help myself to run away from you . I know i shouldn't care/bother/love you anymore . But , i just can't help it coz i miss you and in this heart there's always your name . Eventhough , my familys or friends surrounds me or be there for me i feel lonely unlike i am with you . I don't feel lonely when i'm with you i feel Happy and i can smile 24/7 when i'm with you Fan ♥. I miss your hugs i miss your kiss and i miss your kisses on the forehead i miss when you call me bumblee bee/'B' and the way you protect me Fan ♥ . I miss everything i miss you i miss us . )'; I should have texted you that time . I'm regretting my mistakes Fan i know its my fault its my wrong doing . I'm truthlly sorry Fan i'm truthlly sorry )';I didn't mean to hurt you i really didnt mean it . )'; I really need you by myside i need you in my life again )';i really need you in my life i can't live without you Fan ♥ i really can't i'm not strong anymore . )'; Haish . Those time's when you comfort me about my studies when i failed my maths and the other's . I still remember Fan ♥. You say this to me >>" All your effort didn't go to a waste my dear . Make sure next year starting of the months start revise k ? I know you can . " )'; And , i really prove it i work hard and i pass all my subjects except one . If only you know this news you will be happy and proud . Coz , i know you want me to do well in my studies and i really did well b'coz you're giving me comfert so that i can pass and don't give up . I really thanks to you alot about that . (': Haish . Now , when you're not here by my side i will still keep remembering those memories when i'm with you and your comfort for me to put in the best effort i can in my studies. You're the only ex that i love alot and the one who i couldn't forget for the past 3 years . You're the only guy who i want to be with but no one else . My love is to deep for you ... and i'm happy when i'm with you . You're the only guy who can make me happy you're the only guy who care alot about me not any other guys .When i'm still with you i didn't even contact any other guys behind your back i stick to you and i keep on texting you only you . And , i can really swear that up till now when you're not with me i didn't even chat or text or call any other guys . Haish )'; I badly missing you Afan ♥. I really wish that maybe just that one day everything will go back to normal . Haish )'; Eventhough i know Allah has the perfect guy for me but , i don't even care about it . In my heart there's only you only you that i love and misses and needed no one else . Only you Afan ♥. . . Once Again H a p p y 2 1 s t B i r t h d a y my C u t e y P i e ♥. I miss you alot , i need you and lastly this heart will never stop loving you till i die even how i need to sacrifice this love i will sacrifice just only for you ♥.
MuchLove;
Fahfah (': ( Bumbleebee)
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