Breatheless.
"Listen to this heartbeat it will never ever erase this love for you." :'[
I may be happy from th` outside(&Im pretending as one). But, in this heart it stills bleeding and crying b'coz i miss u to much. Haish. :'[ I'm worried about you, and i can`t sleep throughtout th` nites that pass by in just half an hour time. Stay awake just to watch th` days pass by.
Im breatheless; i can`t breathe like usual. If one day i were to leave.Im sure enuf you were happy to see me go , do you?I feel that my breathing is like bit by bit . Usually ; humans breathing is 1..2..3..4..&5 . But , not me. My breathing is like 1..3 ..5 . Sighs. :'[ I just wish god can take me away if he really love me alot.I can`t bare th` hard games anymore. It just to torturing for me.It really is. Haish. Yesterday night, call up bestie and we talked on-th`-phone from 12 onwards up till 1am.All bestie can hear is my shedding tears in th` phone crying and pleading for him to come back . But i know u wont. Haish. Bestie told me many things about 'love'. When he told me about his ex to me , i can really feel what he feel coz i've gone thru th` same hard games like him. I remember when bestie told me this ' when u sacrifice and give all ur love to the person u really-really love alot and pour all those sweet things to him/her if he/her didnt cherish and take it or just ignore about it we will be th` one who get hurt but not them. ' Yes, people told me i'm still small enuf to know about 'love' but let me tell u this. I really understand and gone thru alot and i've learn and know alot about love. Haish. Im to weak and now im sick . Fever, breatheless,body aching , running nose . What somemore?
Im breatheless; i can`t breathe like usual. If one day i were to leave.Im sure enuf you were happy to see me go , do you?I feel that my breathing is like bit by bit . Usually ; humans breathing is 1..2..3..4..&5 . But , not me. My breathing is like 1..3 ..5 . Sighs. :'[ I just wish god can take me away if he really love me alot.I can`t bare th` hard games anymore. It just to torturing for me.It really is. Haish. Yesterday night, call up bestie and we talked on-th`-phone from 12 onwards up till 1am.All bestie can hear is my shedding tears in th` phone crying and pleading for him to come back . But i know u wont. Haish. Bestie told me many things about 'love'. When he told me about his ex to me , i can really feel what he feel coz i've gone thru th` same hard games like him. I remember when bestie told me this ' when u sacrifice and give all ur love to the person u really-really love alot and pour all those sweet things to him/her if he/her didnt cherish and take it or just ignore about it we will be th` one who get hurt but not them. ' Yes, people told me i'm still small enuf to know about 'love' but let me tell u this. I really understand and gone thru alot and i've learn and know alot about love. Haish. Im to weak and now im sick . Fever, breatheless,body aching , running nose . What somemore?
I feel my world is nothing now w/o u.Im hopeless im useless .I just keep on blaming myself for this. &I dont know what th` reason is.I keep on dreaming when i standing or whatever i do. I can`t even do anything for this past few days.Whenever i do something or whenever i put anything anywhere i will surely asked myself ' Where is that thing i put just now ?' Or even when im walking outside w my family im walking on my own .&That point of time im dreaming while i walking .All i think about is you, only you in my mind.Haish. Went to aunty♥ house in th` morning just now, went up to level 7 and then seat w small sister♥ . She understand`s me so well and same goes to aunty and bestie.Haish:'( I hug her and cried my heart out. Haish I just dont know why, what happen to me. I miss waking up w a smile, where i know you always be there by myside. :'[ Im still waiting.haish. Im to weak to type now.Bye.Tc.
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