I think i had enuf of this bullshit's in life , seriously. Thanks to my mummy and my bestie syafiq, withouth them i don't think i'm still here. Sometime's i choose to die then to live.Y'know why?B'coz being in this world there is so much trouble's i need to face thru. I had enuf of this nonsense when parent's didn't talk to you and act that you're invisible and a bullshit's called love when he say to push that love aside and when you lost a bestie just because you told your bestie you slash your hand and he leave's you but in the end you've to lie to him instead telling him th truth? B'coz you scared of loosing him. Haish , i've totally had enuf of this kind of situation. My life is so fuck up! Why can't i have a happiness forever?I'm angry w some people around me they treat me as if they change their clothes and throw one side. How can i control this?You're treating me as if i'm a useless and a ghost for you people . Thanks to the person around me who still care for my health and so on. Thanks alot. I can't wait to go school tomorrow because stay-ingg at home make's me feel like i'm in jail . Haish, how i wish i'm 18 now it will b much more better. Haish,i can go wherever i want to. Hmmm, sometime's in life i know its hard to face everything in just one go , but y'know something i'm the one who facing everything in one go right now. I don't know if afan is angry w me lost contact w me already or not ? He didn't even care . I told you he won't i'm sure now he is having fun w his ex's or friend's out there. Hmmm, unlike me i'm the one suffering over here all alone. Haish, thank's alot god thank's alot for doing me like this . I'm just waiting for your call to b above not down here right now in this earth. I don't want to live anymore i'm sick and tired i want to die. Since you want it this way so be it ,
you torture me you torture me so much. Haish, i'm sick and tired and weak. I've no more strength. Only i can do is pray and pray and pray. I'm totally useless person and stupid and fucking daughter right? I'll keep on blaming myself ok?I'd enuf get that i'd enuf . Urgh! Haish.
Whatever. Will update some other time. No more parents , no more love , no more naufal . That's it. Takecare.~

Labels: So damn frustrated.